back to back.

time: 1.15am

Blogging has taken a back seat for some time as I find myself swarmed with things to do. It feels like im back to year 1 with the insane number of projects. The subjects feel so familiar yet foreign. I guess cause maths and econs have been reintroduced into my life, two subjects which almost killed me back in JC. I cannot deny though, that research for all its shitty numbers has been interesting. As i watch Vivian dissect and tear apart our proposal, I couldnt help but marvel at the level of scrutiny and logical thought she had. Everyday I wonder if Im in the right concentration. Everyday I tell myself, dun look back.

I've decided to place a little bit more focus back on my work from now on. It has been a crazy 4 weeks as I balance work, with hall, with my HI commitment. I want everything. I want the cake, to eat it and be satisfied. But maybe I cant. I dont want it to feel guilty again for neglecting things that should matter. I was really tickled at eldon's reaction to my situation, but honestly, i appreciated it. (:

Nike run in two days! Goodness, i just dont want to be the last few. haha its amazing how some pple think of 10km as OK. But hey...im going to TRY k...along side dear daph. haha. so exciting! dun rain please!

And here is the one song i have not gotten out of my head for 2 years, since i heard justin sing it during one of the CS roof-top events when we were back in year one. Then someone sent it to me and i was so hooked. This song was like the song for me and marie back in sweden. I remember all the silly sing alongs and her fav line in that song - "And it's our godforsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved "
I mean, who the hell can not like a song as catchy as this? :P

Jason Mraz - I'm yours

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, now I'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out I'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And it's our godforsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait
i'm sure there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate
I'm yours

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I'd be sayin' is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more,
no more it cannot wait
I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you will find that the sky is yours

so please don't, please don't, please don't,
there's no need to complicate,
Cause our time is short
This, this, this is our fate,
I'm yours
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knows whats the worst thing about crossroads?
Its when you are not the one holding the signboard.