stay home mummy's girl

time: 1.12am

My resolution for this holidays is to try to stay at home a little more often. This wouldnt be too hard considering im not home during most of the holidays since i entered uni.

Im glad i didnt attempt any internship in the end. Sometimes i take my home so much for granted that i forget that it really is the core of my life. Not my home, but rather, my family.

Today my mum was telling me she doesnt want to teach tuition anymore next year. Time for her to take a break. So we were kind of musing about the kind of jobs she could take up. But came to a conclusion that maybe staying at home is easier. Just that i guess she feels lonely at times, when there is no one at home. Even if there isnt talking going around, the presence of another in the house always make it seem less, quiet.

Recently my dad talked to us about this, about us being so busy that we forget about my mum. And my dad is not one to really talked about such things. I remembered being rather agitated at first, but in retrospect, it true. And cause my mum isnt one who will talk about it, i guess it was up to my dad to bring it up.

What happens when your kids start to neglect you? When they begin to find everything else more important but you? They will cancel a date with you to go out with their friends. They dont want to sit down and talk to you, but they dun mind spending hours chatting online to their friends.

nope, things at home have not reached such a stage (luckily) cause i have a rather close knit family in the first place. Hard to imagine maybe, but im the quiet one when compared to my bro. And i tend to share less about my life.

there is still strange feeling in me now that i cannot articulate, but i do know that i should learn to spend more time at home. To spend more time with my mum, someone who has been so unconditional with her love. And with me going to be away for 6 months, i know im going to miss home horribly.

cliched i know, but home is where the heart is.

dont you agree?