imperfection
time: 9.53am
as we stumble through life, we tend to be so focused on what we have to do, that we forget to look at the person we are, or the person we have become. everyday is a flurry of activities and if we do stop, how often do we stop to take a inward look?
I wouldnt have really stopped to think much about this, until some friends of mine kind of mentioned it and i really glad they did, because it just left me thinking for a little while.
By nature, im someone who worries more than a normal person should. No, i do not exactly live my life wondering if something horrible will happen with each step i take, but i like to let my heart rush ahead before my mind can rationally think it through. im prone to little outburst when little hurdles suddenly pop up and im always wondering if things are being done correctly and on time. Actually, it is really my way of handling it. I'm not exactly panicking, but i have to articulate it just to let the moment pass or do something(even if its just complaining) to make myself feel better. But its not very healthy isnt it? More so when it affects people around me.
Another thing about me- i sit around too much sometimes. Indecisiveness and the horrible inability to get things done. I can be very efficient when i need too. There are just some things in my life that i will procrastinate for as long as i can. Why, i cannot even fathom. It is easier to pretend something doesnt exist even though its there, even if i should have the right of way. Thats why i sometimes forget how to fight for things that i should try for, or to have. Because of some irrational fear, a feeling that i cannot put a finger on.
And the list really goes on. Fear of confrontation, loves to have occasional complain fits... all the little flaws that make up who i am. thank you all for bearing with me.
SO am i going to change all these? haha, well..sadly i dun think any changes will miraculously occur within a few days. It takes time and a high level of consciousness to try to change things. Some i am more confident of improving than others. While imperfection breeds in every one, i guess we all could still try to change things for the better. Every tiny step forward counts.
as we stumble through life, we tend to be so focused on what we have to do, that we forget to look at the person we are, or the person we have become. everyday is a flurry of activities and if we do stop, how often do we stop to take a inward look?
I wouldnt have really stopped to think much about this, until some friends of mine kind of mentioned it and i really glad they did, because it just left me thinking for a little while.
By nature, im someone who worries more than a normal person should. No, i do not exactly live my life wondering if something horrible will happen with each step i take, but i like to let my heart rush ahead before my mind can rationally think it through. im prone to little outburst when little hurdles suddenly pop up and im always wondering if things are being done correctly and on time. Actually, it is really my way of handling it. I'm not exactly panicking, but i have to articulate it just to let the moment pass or do something(even if its just complaining) to make myself feel better. But its not very healthy isnt it? More so when it affects people around me.
Another thing about me- i sit around too much sometimes. Indecisiveness and the horrible inability to get things done. I can be very efficient when i need too. There are just some things in my life that i will procrastinate for as long as i can. Why, i cannot even fathom. It is easier to pretend something doesnt exist even though its there, even if i should have the right of way. Thats why i sometimes forget how to fight for things that i should try for, or to have. Because of some irrational fear, a feeling that i cannot put a finger on.
And the list really goes on. Fear of confrontation, loves to have occasional complain fits... all the little flaws that make up who i am. thank you all for bearing with me.
SO am i going to change all these? haha, well..sadly i dun think any changes will miraculously occur within a few days. It takes time and a high level of consciousness to try to change things. Some i am more confident of improving than others. While imperfection breeds in every one, i guess we all could still try to change things for the better. Every tiny step forward counts.
posted by quek | 9:53 AM
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