so screwed

time: 17.20pm

Sigh. Is it already the third week of July?

Nothing seems to be going as planned for fyp. The hopes we kept high and the fingers we kept crossed are kind of faltering, at least for me. But with monday, hopefully we will be a little clearer.

And the holiday is ending, with still so many people i wan to meet up and so many places i wan to go! Yet the camp lingers at the back of my mind, nagging me of the hundred and one things i have to do. Why do i have to bother so much, being concerned about others, wanting to do a good job, yet getting exhausted with trying.

The other day my mum asked me, "is it worth it?". Honestly the question didnt go down too well with me cause I've stopped wondering. Just do, dun question. It makes life simpler.

and somehow i think that for every bit I give, I do get something back in return. Not in material returns, but the intangible things. Naive maybe, but i've been proven many times in life that what goes around does comes around.

One thing i need to learn though is survival. Being nice makes you a lovely person. Being too nice makes you a step-over, even by people you thought were your friends.