when life is frail
time: 10.54am
i havent been blogging for some time. The strange thing is, with the holidays here, time seem to be even tighter. Im starting work next week as well, for two weeks. Lucky for me, i have tues and sat off. Not too bad if you ask me, so its still a 5 day work week.
Its weird to be home right now. In fact i've cancelled everything planned this week except for work related meetings. My grandpa passed away last night. It wasnt something unexpected, because he had been on life support for the past few months. It is a relief of sorts, for him to finally go. He had lost the ability to do anything. Feeding was by a tube and he wasnt even concious. There was no quality in the life he was holding on too. But my grandpa had lived a long life(97 years to be exact) and it was a life that he had really made the most of. I had never seen so much resilence in a man.
funerals, they bring out sides of pple you may never expect to see. I remember when my grandma passed away, i saw my grandpa, on a wheelchair crying over my grandma's coffin, his small frail frame supported by the maid and my aunt.Their relationship was a queer one, one made up of as much love, as hate, for each other. They didnt sleep in the same room for as long as i could remember and they wouldnt eat together at the same table during big family functions. Yet, they never really fought out loud and my grandma would cook food to his preference, even if it was with much grumbling and criticism. I dont know, it was complicated. But at that moment, when he bent over watching my grandma's face, sobbing, you understand that maybe, the love never did go away.
I wonder how they will be now that they can see each other again, wherever they are. I hope they will be happy.
There is alot of moving on for some of my relatives from here, and alot of loose ends to tie up. Im actually quite scared and worried because things on this side of the family have never been that simple. But for now, all that matters is the sending off.
Rest in peace.
i havent been blogging for some time. The strange thing is, with the holidays here, time seem to be even tighter. Im starting work next week as well, for two weeks. Lucky for me, i have tues and sat off. Not too bad if you ask me, so its still a 5 day work week.
Its weird to be home right now. In fact i've cancelled everything planned this week except for work related meetings. My grandpa passed away last night. It wasnt something unexpected, because he had been on life support for the past few months. It is a relief of sorts, for him to finally go. He had lost the ability to do anything. Feeding was by a tube and he wasnt even concious. There was no quality in the life he was holding on too. But my grandpa had lived a long life(97 years to be exact) and it was a life that he had really made the most of. I had never seen so much resilence in a man.
funerals, they bring out sides of pple you may never expect to see. I remember when my grandma passed away, i saw my grandpa, on a wheelchair crying over my grandma's coffin, his small frail frame supported by the maid and my aunt.Their relationship was a queer one, one made up of as much love, as hate, for each other. They didnt sleep in the same room for as long as i could remember and they wouldnt eat together at the same table during big family functions. Yet, they never really fought out loud and my grandma would cook food to his preference, even if it was with much grumbling and criticism. I dont know, it was complicated. But at that moment, when he bent over watching my grandma's face, sobbing, you understand that maybe, the love never did go away.
I wonder how they will be now that they can see each other again, wherever they are. I hope they will be happy.
There is alot of moving on for some of my relatives from here, and alot of loose ends to tie up. Im actually quite scared and worried because things on this side of the family have never been that simple. But for now, all that matters is the sending off.
Rest in peace.
posted by quek | 10:53 AM
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